As Time Goes By

I sit here in the quiet of home. Sunshine outside, the dog laying at my feet, all is quiet and still. I listen for You. I sit here knowing Your presence is all around me. I wait on you. Trying to empty my mind of thoughts about the day. Things I need to do. Things I want to do. Things I have to do. I am so in awe of this life of mine. What I have been so blessed with. And how I see Your hand and heart on my life through all these years. How you have shaped me, formed me and guided me and loved me and comforted me and strengthened me and empowered me by your Holy Spirit. Taught me and given gifts to me that I would maybe have never unwrapped on my own. The awe and wonder of You. The transformations in the twinkling of an eye. Our lives go by so swiftly. It's not hard to remember feeling young. Remembering the past, seeing now how quickly it all goes. And the future here on earth, unknown, with the promise of a future with You. But then, You have been here all along. I long to see You face to face, without the limitations of this mortal body. We get a glimpse now and so many things are shadowed. But then it will all be clear.

I don't want to race through each day wondering at the end where all the time went, now that I see how quickly it has all raced by. It's like we set our eyes on some future event and before we realize it, it has come and gone. So quickly. And what did we do with all that waiting time? Did we wait on You? Where was our focus? What did we set our eyes on? The result? Did we truly enjoy the time to get there or just fret it away with silly duties and details.

I am missing my babies right now. Where did all that time go? Just yesterday they were in my arms and now they are grown and on their own. At the end, I don't want to regret one single moment. So keep me in the present. Remember the past but don't dwell on it. Think of the future but don't worry about it. Live in the now, see what's right in front of me and take each hour, each day at a time. Help me be ready for what You want to show me.